Different day, same stuff

Well off to the Cardiologist this morning for an echocardiogram and followup visit with PA Law. New procedure with the echo having a "bubble" test. The bubble test is putting an IV in my arm and putting saline solution in and the echo will follow the flow through the heart.
There is a hole in my heart. And I described an episode I had back in '89, luckily haven't had one since, with numbness and my face slightly drooping. With that, the upper pressure in the right side of my heart, I will be scheduled for two things: 1. CT Scan of my head, to see if it shows anything damaged caused by a stroke and 2. a TEE which is an outpatient procedure of inserting a tube through my throat to look closer at my heart and determine the size and type of hole that is there. This is leading up to a possible surgery of clamping the whole in my heart.
Can't get over one thing before I am jumping into something else with my medical issues. It is so draining on me. I can't help but feel so down about this. I try not to but after so much with dealing with one thing or another it really takes it toll.
I am in good hands and I know I will be taken good care of... It's just the principle.